a little too harsh
okay, so my last blog was a little, no, WAY too harsh. i was just angry at myself. i know it was my choice. no one else could have made it for me. sometimes i just get too overwhelmed and feel like it is the only option. rather than acting negatively on it i should do something constructive. that was my mistake. no one elses.
i am sick of being hurt. and sometimes i have no control over the things that are hurting me, but most of the time i am the one responsible. i need to grow up and accept that. if i want a better life, than i need to move on. who cares what you are doing? do what you want to do.
just know that if you are doing those things, i cannot and will not be around you. im sorry. thats just how it has to be. i have to protect myself so that i am not doing this forever. trust me i would love to party the rest of my life, but deep down i have goals and higher motives than that. plus there is no honesty and reliability in drug world. and that is something i highly value.
i love you all and i am sorry if i hurt anyones feelings. i will have to remember next time i am pissed not to write on my blog. or at least censor it a little. oh well at least i got my point across.
anna